I have been doing some Poppy reminiscing this week and remembered the little quilt that I made her for when she was born. PottyMouthMama always does these beautiful birth stories for her babies on their birthdays.
Whenever I am pregnant I get the strange need to craft stuff, even if I haven't done anything for years. I had this sudden desperate urge to knit, knitting on the other hand did not feel an urge to know me. At around 32 weeks I was having mild contractions so I was ordered to bed rest - I took that to mean only work 30 hours a weeks with my feet up. It is documented that I am not the best with sitting still, so I got out my old sewing machine that had been gathering dust and decided to make a quilt for her moses basket. It was the first thing I had sewn for ages and the start of my re-newed love affair with sewing. I took it with me to hospital as well to wrap her in it so that it still smelt familiar when we got home. It looks so tiny now, yet it use to wrap around so snug.
So on her birthday, I managed to make it to 38 weeks and we went in for our Cesarean. I can't deliver naturally at all, even going into labour can be dangerous, so I unfortunately will never be able to know any of those early mother feelings. I always found it strange though that they call it an elective option, when I didn't really have a choice. I do know being as aware as I could in that funny little room of my baby, tiny little one that she was, that instantly knew we were now separate but still ...... I savoured everyday in the hospital with her as I knew it was our time before I had to share her with the rest of the family. Her birth story is not the usual ones that you hear I guess, but it was my job to carry her until she was ready and my job to be strong as I could for her arrival. I walked around with a lot of guilt after Caleb was born, not the second time, I held my head high - look at her now - cute as a button, wish I could take credit for that though I think she is her own diva self already. I would like to say I have no idea where her knock-em down, drag-em out attitude came from, but I fear I would be lying, she may look like Glen but that may be a little of me.
Long winded post a little varied off the topic I know, but that little quilt has so many memories and easily my favourite little person creation. Thanks to Mary-Jane for this weeks theme after very short notice. I am hoping Mama to the most gorgeous red head birthday girl, Ellieboo can help us out with next week's theme. Remember if you want to join in, add your link in below so we can all find you.