Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Honestly

Sunday Gardening 017

Once upon a time there was a brave young knight that set out into a new world he didn’t understand, a place where all new adventures were exciting and exhausting and while the his mother wished she could keep him safe in the castle she knew he had to go out and be his own man. She spent many a year trying to build him armour, but there are some weapons that penetrate more than steel. How does one make it strong enough to keep out words and judgement but soft enough to breath in air and feel the sunshine. The knight was strong and pure of soul and she knew at the dusk that he would return triumphant, but that didn’t make waving at the gate any easier. There was comfort in the rising of the sun and the rising of the stars and the knight rode high and proud until he realised that he didn’t ride alone and that his quest was of value.

It would be a lie for me to say “yes my beautiful boy with Asperger’s Autism went to school and it was all rosy” and some part of me feels like I have to honest to any other family going through the same thing. After Sally’s post, it really struck a cord with me. Weighing up what to share is a constant juggle and the more people that read, the more guarded it is. He is working really hard, but it is hard for him to sort out where he really fits in and who is a friend. There is only so much guiding and preparing for situations, but it is just going to take time.

12 comments:

Stomper Girl said...

I love your description of the perfect armour, touched me right in my heart it did.

I think finding the line between honesty and loyalty to your family with due respect for their feelings is a very difficult one to find. You have to blog what feels right to you.

Good for Caleb for being brave and trying to sort it all out. What a gallant knight he is.

teddybearswednesday said...

Bravo to Caleb and bravo to you mum, you are both amazing. WOnderful post Cindy.xo

Andi said...

Just a little tear in my eye!!

Betty said...

Beautiful Blog Cindy
Love
Mum

Sarah-Jo said...

beautiful post cindy xxx

a dear friend of mine is going through the diagnosis stage with her 3yr old son and my heart goes out to her, I will send her a link to your blog if thats ok xxx

clare's craftroom said...

I read that with a tear in my eye as I could truly feel your love for your son , thankyou it was beautiful .

PottyMouthMama said...

Ah Cindy, I wish I could give you a big hug. You are doing an awesome job of navigating the way. You're giving Caleb all the loving and supporting - you're all doing an amazing, ace job. Only blog what YOU want to blog. Don't feel compelled. x

One Flew Over said...

Caleb is a lovely, sweet, kind boy Cindy. You and Glenn are doing a remarkable job x

sophie said...

Not sure what to say Cindy, but I for one love your honesty and you allowing me a sneak peak into your life feels so special. You are a wonderful person and a terrific mum, I get some much inspiration from you.

xxx

Amber said...

Oh Cindy my heart aches for you when you write this. You are such a beautiful soulful mother and he will come through shinning. That must be so hard but your love and open arms every day must ease him. Good on your brave night, the big wide world is out there, but hey with mum's and dad's like you two he will find safety in his castle ( home)...xxx

dearmolly said...

what you blog always comes across as being so sensitive, so thoughtful and most of all so protective of your beautiful boy.

btw - that's my park!!!

Cathy {Tinniegirl} said...

What a beautiful post. I agree with Potty Mouth Mama. You're doing an amazing job.